I was subbing for a teacher’s aide in a special education class on my list of favorite hangout spots. Some of the students I have known since I started subbing back in late 2014. There are a couple of boys who are recent additions and have through no fault of their own have turned the class upside down.
I admire tremendously the teacher and her two sidekicks for coming to school day in and day out to maintain some sense of order in the midst of chaos. The teacher is often holding one student in her lap while another aide is trying to catch the other one on the loose. The remaining aide is trying to help the other students to ignore the commotion and concentrate on their classwork. They didn’t have much luck in doing that the day I was there.
After I got home from the long school day, I needed to decompress. Although I remained cool, calm, and collected through the class time, the tension was building up. My home computer was not cooperating and my banging on the keyboard wasn’t just about my computer’s slowness. I needed to get away by myself before I exploded on people and things around me.
I went on a tennis date with my racket and ball to the practice wall at a nearby college campus. It felt good to be outside and walk the campus trail by myself. I hit the wall with the tennis ball for about a half an hour. After my tennis date, I was able to go back home feeling calm instead of a live wire.
The class is still high on my list of favorites. The boys who require extra attention are special in their own right. They have their sweet moments. At the end of the school day, I walked one of the students to his daycare. I have a connection with him since knowing him for the last two years. He took me by the hand and we walked hand-in-hand until I dropped him off. It was the bright spot in an otherwise day where I had to go hit a wall to help melt a meltdown.